Spouses of wounded military members receive tools that help them overcome their challenges and heal their marriages.
When their husbands were deployed to Afghanistan or Iraq, fighting in the war on terror, they worried constantly about their safety. They found tasks to keep busy—school, children, and chores. The hope of seeing their husbands again kept them energized.
But then they got the call.
They were just going about their normal daily tasks, shopping at the grocery store or picking their children up from school, when the phone rang. When they answered, they were told that their husbands had been injured. Life would never be the same.Support Operation Heal Our Patriots
“You get this call that changes everything,” said Lori Fisher, wife of Jim Fisher, the supervisory chaplain for Operation Heal Our Patriots, the Samaritan’s Purse ministry for wounded veterans. “Suddenly that hope that you had that was the energy keeping you going through the deployment is shattered.”
Some husbands return with severe physical injuries and often have to get used to using a wheelchair or prosthetics.
Others return with injuries that aren’t as visible. They suffer from traumatic brain injuries (TBI) and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). These husbands often become withdrawn, uninterested, depressed, and angry. They may always be on high alert and skittish around people.
“A lot of them go in a basement, go in a back room and do video games or watch TV or whatever they can to escape because they don’t know how to reengage,” said Linda Stephens, wife of Operation Heal Our Patriots chaplain Dan Stephens.
Their spouses must become their caregivers and, for those with brain injuries, their memories, sometimes completely dropping their roles as wives.
A Wound that Doesn’t Heal
According to the Department of Veteran Affairs, between 10 and 18 percent of Iraq and Afghanistan veterans have PTSD. Because they don’t have visible wounds, it’s more easily written off. Many wives have found that people believe their husbands are just crazy or that they aren’t suffering from anything.
“I think that when you’re married to somebody that’s wounded, they think of someone that has lost a body part or might have a chronic pain issue due to [a] shrapnel wound or a gunshot wound or whatnot, so you have intermittent times in which you have to take care of them,” said Bethany McGowan, whose husband, Justin, has TBI and PTSD. “You take care of the pain, and then you’re OK until they’re in pain again. When you’re dealing with someone that has a brain injury, there’s nothing you can give them that’s going to fix anything even for a brief amount of time.”
Bethany said she has to remind Justin to do simple tasks, and if she wants to leave the house to do something like get her nails done, she has to start telling him every day two weeks in advance so he’ll remember. She said it’s difficult because it feels like he’s a different person every day.
Kayla Bradley and her husband, Chris, attended a week-long retreat at the Samaritan’s Purse wilderness lodge in Alaska that is the cornerstone of Operation Heal Our Patriots the week before the McGowans.
They were married about five months after Chris returned from Iraq, where he was a customs officer in the U.S. Navy. It was a year and a half later that they found out he had a brain bleed from a mortar round. Even then, her husband’s parents didn’t understand why he couldn’t move on.
“I think a lot of people think that when you’re wounded, that the injury is over when you have your treatments,” she said. “Then everything’s good and you just recreate what your life is and you just move forward. But so much of the injury keeps coming up, and [there’s] constantly doctor’s appointments. We’re at seven years, and there’s always something else coming up. There’s no moving forward. I think we’ve had a lot of criticism that we haven’t just let it pass.”
It might seem like life is easier for wives like Kayla because they married their husbands after they were injured. They knew what they were getting into. That isn’t always the case. Sometimes brain injuries don’t show up immediately, and even when they do, it’s difficult to understand the full extent of them.
“It wasn’t like we could say, ‘Well this isn’t the person I married,’” Kayla said. “He was the person I married. We just weren’t aware of the full extent of it before we got married.”
Many wives said that PTSD was rarely talked about when their husbands returned home, and they didn’t know what was wrong. It often wasn’t until their marriages began failing or they had trouble while training for another deployment that they realized they needed treatment.
The New Normal
Even after treatment, life isn’t easy for these wounded veterans and their wives. Doctor appointments and injuries take over their lives. They don’t have enough support. Life doesn’t return to the way it was before the husbands’ injuries, and couples must work to find a new normal.
Sometimes it’s trying to figure out how to sleep together when the husband has flashbacks. Sometimes couples must learn how to be around each other constantly after spending so much time away.
The struggles put enormous strains on the marriages.
“I know there’s a lot of people that do [leave] when things like that happen, and they always want to say they just came to the realization that they couldn’t handle it or they couldn’t do it and it’s just the hardest thing to walk away, but it’s really not,” Bethany McGowan said. “The hardest thing to do is to stay. It’s the hardest thing to watch somebody lose themselves because that’s what’s happening, and you know it will never get better.”
Both spouses must give up dreams to make their new lives work. Sergeant Bert Blevins wanted a lifetime career in the Marines, but his PTSD and back injuries prevented him from continuing. Mary Dunn, who is married to Army Sergeant First Class Anthony Driscoll, gave up her career as a clinical psychologist to take care of him.
“The wife is grieving the loss of the man that she knew; grieving the loss of the hopes she had for reunion post-deployment; grieving the loss of their shared expectations, hopes, and dreams for the future; grieving the loss of the father that was there for his children; and often grieving the loss of her own personal dreams for her career trajectory that is now aborted because she needs to take on the role of the caregiver,” Lori Fisher said.
Wives often bear this burden alone. In a women’s session during the 13th week of the Operation Heal Our Patriots summer season, the chaplains’ wives asked how many of the women have female friends. Only three raised their hands.
“Many of them are trying to guard their husband’s dignity and they feel so judged by other women,” Lori said. “They’re afraid that their husband will embarrass them or their husband will feel embarrassed.”
She suggested that wives of wounded veterans find hobbies that they can use to relate to other women. But she admitted that it’s not easy. Getting away to meet those people can be difficult, and finding people who understand is even harder.
Operation Heal Our Patriots provides an avenue for women who are going through similar circumstances to meet each other and offer tips and guidance. It’s a step toward friendship for some of the women.
Reconnecting in Alaska
Samaritan Lodge Alaska, located in Port Alsworth, is designed as a retreat where military spouses can reconnect with each other and with God. Each week for 15 weeks, 10 couples have the opportunity to spend time together in the wilderness of Lake Clark National Park.
For many, it’s like the honeymoon they never had.
“One wonderful thing that we see up here is getting those men out where they’re doing something enjoyable, but not only that, they’re doing it with their wife,” Linda Stephens said. “That is such a huge thing.”
Sometimes it’s the first time the husband has been active in months. He is accomplishing things, and the wife once again sees him as her husband rather than just someone she has to care for.
While it provides a much-needed getaway for the couples, Operation Heal Our Patriots is so much more. It gives wounded veterans and their spouses the tools to reconnect and heal marriages through biblically-based seminars that help strengthen their relationships with God and each others.
“In this environment, we’re both very nature-oriented, so we’re both doing something we love, and then of course the whole aspect with God and Jesus,” Mary Dunn said. “I was talking to the chaplain last night, and that was never really a big presence in my life.”
Although Mary’s husband was already a Christian, she hadn’t accepted Jesus as her Savior until she talked with the chaplains. For the first time, she let go of her burdens. She was excited about being able to go to God with any difficulties she faced in her marriage.
On the last day of camp, she and her husband were both baptized in Lake Clark.
“It’s really good to work on our relationship, not only with our marriage, but with God as well,” she said. “We’ve never really had a role with God being part of our relationship. So learning how to do that has been invaluable because that’s not something we really knew.”
The chaplains and their wives teach sessions throughout the week about communication and other tools to help the couples appreciate each other better and forgive each other. Both of the chaplains were in the military, so they come from a place of understanding.
Anthony and Mary were one of nine couples to rededicate their marriages at the camp during Week 14. One couple said they decided to do the rededication because after a year of arguing over a certain topic, they finally resolved it while in Alaksa. They said that without that resolution, their marriage likely would have ended. Many couples expressed a desire for a new start.
As these couples return home, they still face problems. But now, they have contacts with Operation Heal Our Patriots who they can talk to when life becomes too much. The chaplains and their wives communicate via email and social media with the couples.
Before leaving, the couples exchanged their information and some planned trips to see each other. The support they feel and the love they learn is enough to save marriages.
“They just need a ray of hope, and I think [here] they feel, like ‘Yeah, there is hope,’” Linda Stephens said. “‘There’s life after injury.’”